Where is this going???

         The first time I heard about blue revolution it wasn’t even called blue revolution. It was a Monday night, I was sitting in the brown love seat in the leaving from. It was half way through October, half way through the first trimester. The room was quite except the tv that was on,Monday from 8-9pm my mom and I always Grey’s Anatomy. It’s the last day of a long weekend and I’m fully rested but wished the long weekend would last longer.During commercialsI’m concentrated in my computer. In facebook my class mates are checking if there was any homework, on skype I’m chatting with Seba and my emails have my weekly updates from youtube and facebook, but there is another email, one from Mr. Abel. The subject of the email says MARINE CONSERVATION MEETING. I open the email and start reading it as the show comes back on. It talks about a marine conversation forum in the community in the end of November and they are looking for students how would like to volunteer and help out with the event. And that catches my attention. For my CAS project I wanted to do something with marine biology but I ended up helping with the Bingo instead. This was a great opportunity, it would be extra volunteer work,plus I still have to complete 150 hours of community work, a little extra volunteer work wouldn’t hurt. Excitedly I tell my mom about the email when the next commercials come on and she says it’s a great idea, but she asks when the meetings are happening. I skim through the email find where it says: Tuesdays at la paz south from 3:15 to 4pm. It’s right before  dance... I tell my mom and how I want to go but I don’t want to miss my dance classes. She says that If I change quickly she can pick me up 3:50 and take me to my dance classes. It will work out.

          In the first meeting we were all sitting around the glass table in the office. We were all there, Miss Sarah,Mr. Abel, Pascal, Richard, Micah, Caleb, Dominic and Bianca. We were all very different, from different places and culture but we had something in common we love the ocean. That  first meeting something kindle inside of me, that hasn’t been lighted in a long time. I felt like a was a little girl again, waiting for everyone to wake up on Christmas morning so I could go open up my presents. I felt this satisfaction and excitement, this is what I wanted I told myself. This is what I was looking for, I would gain a lot of experience  and meet the director from FECOPT! This was perfect! This would also look amazing in  a college resume. I wouldn’t stop proposing ideas, I was available for anything! I would make this happen, it would be unforgettable. When the meeting was over Mr. Abel came up to me as my mom’s car got into the parking lot. And he says,”I’m glad that you came today, I could see the way your eyes shined throughout the entire meeting.” Yeah I was glad of also. As the weeks passed by I was punctual, I won’t miss a meeting and also participate in which ever way I could. I remember we we came up with the  motto, “we are always thinking green, lets start thinking BLUE!” and then coming with the name: Blue Revolution, we were going to teach people to think blue and save the oceans.

             When the day of the presentation comes, I have butterflies in my stomach, I’m soo excited. I’m going to meet Don Enrique! This is the start of something big I told myself, this is the start of a revolution.  I go up to the stage with the crew, we are all excited, this is big, there are a lot of people, we can make a difference, we can make a change. As we go down to the stage and sit by the others and listen to the presentation, twenty minutes later the presentation goes on and on and on and it's still not done. I keep checking my clock and the presentation is taking longer than it should. I'm getting boring and as I see the audience and try to look for my friends, disappointment comes into me when I see there are not there, minutes later I see them come in the audience again with food in their hand. Lucky, I love the presentation but I wished I could get out for a little bit and eat like they did, I don't blame them for going away from the presentation. When it's finally done I hear both positive and negative feedback, but all I know is that I will never do a presentation as long and boring as that.

         Four months later I'm here not liking the concept any more. I'm the complete opposite to the day in which I went into that meeting and my eyes shined like bright little stars. I don't have that enthusiasm any more. I don't even know where this project is going on, I used to love it, and now it just feels like an obligation, a boring project that I don't even know what the purpose if it is. I feel like I'm not creating a change the way I wanted. If feels like I'm just talking to people that don't care what I'm taking about. I'm like going into a sports meeting where everyone is expecting to hear about sports and I start talking about flowers, they  don't care about flowers try care about is sports. I'm giving the presenting to teenagers now day teens don't care about anything other than themselves and how to be cool to fit in. I want to find a better purpose with blue revolution or just find something else to do with it because right now it's not going anywhere and ever if I went to high schools around the areas talking about responsible fishing I would feel like I'm wasting my time if nobody cares about it. I need a project where I'm constantly working and facing challenges, that's the way I like things. I'll try to figure something out, because if I really want to make a change then I need to start moving.